The Little Boy Who Could

My Guest Author today is my lovely aunt as she shares her passion
 of family and keeps their memories alive.

I never knew my brother, Jack. He was born nearly 20 years before me and he died when he was only 14 but he lived a life that affected many.

Mama and Daddy were married on the 4th of November 1916. It was a mild fall day, gathering up for a full-fledged winter in the Melville country. They were married at my Uncle Ed’s. There is a little piece of Mother’s wedding dress in a treasure box. It was white wool with blue flowers.

I have to make up details to suit myself, but they had a nice lunch there and then loaded a few donations and gifts in Granny’s wagon. They would ride their horses along with the Uncles and Granny up country towards the Sweet Grass Canyon, some eight miles into the mountains. Granny Brannin and the bachelor uncles lived there on homesteads they had acquired. There often were a few who also went along just because they enjoyed the company, but in that group was Ernest Parker who was a partner with my Daddy in the sawmill business. They had bought the sawmill from Uncle Ed and were ready to get into business. No need to figure Mother in as camp cook as she had learned horse wrangling but not the skill of cooking, however Ernest had been on his own since he was 12 so he would instruct the feisty little gal.

The logging camp was set up a couple of miles beyond the Brannin homeplace, a rustic cabin, bunkhouse, and the sawmill on the side hill. There are still the remnants of the cabin, a rotted out log or two or at least I claim there is. As they settled in, so did winter and in March baby Jack decided to be born right there and then. Ernest was enlisted to get on his long-legged horse and plow through the drifts to get Granny, but in the meantime, my Daddy, Bud Ward was stoking the stove, sweating and boiling water for whatever reason and Mother and God were delivering her firstborn baby boy. Tiny little guy, he fit in a shoe box and when he wasn’t in my Mother’s arms he was near the warming oven of the stove.

An old Chinese proverb says that a child much loved has many names, or maybe one of my uncles said that. John Carrington Ward, carried the full array of English names that represented my Daddy’s family he had left at 16 years earlier to explore Canada and USA. But he was called Jack, Dyke, Montgomery Ward, Wardie or Baby Jack, doted on by his family and extended family.

By the time they could plow their way out of the Crazy Mountains in June, the Doctor pronounced him a genuine baby boy and by the time he was one year old, he weighed 12 pounds and could run without ducking under the table.  I can see my Mama packing him on her hip down to see Granny or snagging him off a stump to ride with her on Spider. She always loved dolls and now she had her very own.

That next years were the years of WWI and Daddy, an enthusiastic American, gathered Ernest and my Uncle Barney and Uncle Sid and enlisted, going to France as an engineer in the sawmill division and Mother took little Jack to live with Granny. Many times, the little man got in trouble for something his Uncles taught him, but he was well loved and learned confidence, a little mosquito, a favored companion to everyone.

No sooner was the war over, and the men returned when they fought another war. Fire raged along the side of the canyon, an insult to their home, but God turned the beast back on itself and life went on. I see pictures of Jack squatted down playing around under the feet of a horse, riding on a pet bear or a pig, playing in mud puddles though Mother kept him a safe distance from the sawmill. I know he perched on Daddy’s knee and rode “a cock horse to Bamberry Cross to see a fine lady upon a white horse.” And he trusted Ernest’s growly instructions.

Even tiny boys grow up and though Mother, an avid reader had only managed, off and on, six years of school, Daddy was a strong supporter of education; so little Jack was left with the Evangelical Preachers family to stay in Big Timber, at least three hours away, to go to school. (I don’t know how my Mother could let him go.)

Being a fearless gregarious fellow, he enjoyed the fellowship and company, I don’t know about the academics. Because I lived the same way to go to school, I know it would be a long time before Mother and Daddy would get to Big Timber to see their school kids and in Jack’s case a much longer time; so what is a guy to do, but pack up and head for the hills. It was forty miles to the sawmill, twenty miles to Melville and twenty miles on from there. Jack caught a ride with the mailman to a few miles beyond Melville, now Perry Anderson’s. (Now how do you suppose this little kid talked the mail man into that?) He would hoof it over the hills home from there. Remember he is little in stature and few in years.

During the night, the Uncles saw a campfire up on the hill by the Lone Pine and figured it was a hunter but the next morning little Jack showed up at the ranch. That is a long and lonely trip, but that little boy could.

He went back to school and participated heartily, at one time taking a very hard blow to his head as he had put a bucket on his head and another boy hit the bucket with a bat. Whether this was the start of the tumor or not, who knows, but Ernest noticed Jack losing his balance and they took him to the Doctor to find out he had a tumor on his brain. Mother would take him to Mayo Clinic in Minnesota and they would use radiation. Ernest generously used his Spanish American War retirement to finance these treatments. Gradually Jack was confined to home and by now he had sisters, Ellen and Barbara and brother Buck.

Men regularly came to the sawmill to buy lumber and they almost became family as they were invited to eat and stay over, and they quickly took to the spunky boy. One man, a bit infamous, made a special trip to see Jack and left in tears at the sight of the crippled in body but not spirit, lad. Mother would massage the cramps out of his limbs. He would talk about his confidence in heaven and wrote out his will, leaving his cow and watch etc. to his brother and sisters and one day God relieved the little boy who could, and a community of admirers wept.

Mary Jane Andrews 9/2019

Black Canvas of Oblivion

Today my Guest Author is my adventurous grandson.
The hidden world in the dark depths of the earth come to light
through his senses and his phenomenal photography.

Lights danced in the dark. There was one light and infinite darkness. It was as if every metaphor for good and evil was set before searching eyes. In and out, the beams twinkled off dusty haze- hundreds of feet off the deck. Silhouettes of steep walls massed like phantom cathedrals coming together and falling again by some consuming darkness. I yelled, and it rang through; sound was bouncing where light could not. My eyes were fixated on the hazy beam of a headlamp, and then it disappeared. The sun went out, and I was suspended, fooled by the dream of weightlessness. My mind, searching for shapes, cast phantasmal images on the blank canvas called oblivion. I locked off the rappelling rack and let my arms fall, fingers outstretched. I let my head fall back and hang, spinning slowly, eyes open. I related to the astronaut who had lost their cosmic directions, as if all of a sudden the moon, the earth, and sun had been extinguished. How often, I wondered, had I seen what Nothing looked like? It was against the intricate pulse of my senses that oblivion should be so apparent. I wanted to realize that my mind was not the only piece of me which doted on fantasy, which reveled in the of summoning of façades.

There is a corner of America called ‘TAG’, where ancient limestone has been slowly eaten by time and water. Where the ghosts in the darkness are the ghosts which we carry with us. This is where fear plays tricks on you; this is where Time’s fickle, delicate pulse whispers. It is flailing its arms at us always, but in the overwhelming emptiness of endless night, there is little choice but to listen to the pulse– to the whisper. For me, the voices cause my chest to tighten. But only because they are at first unfamiliar. Soon I will be lost in the oblivion, fixed only by the polyester highway, the vertical lifeline which is a caver’s messiah. “Trust your Tools, trust your Mind, trust your Body.” I repeat in slow cadence for hours below the earth until these thoughts are like breathing. When the lights have come back on, I wish that I might bask in the infinite a little longer, yet, mankind is not tempered like the translucent troglobites underneath, and we must breach the surface once in a while to take in the breath of sunlight. It is the deal we make to navigate these many worlds: balance.  

TAG stands for the tri-state area where Tennessee, Alabama, and Georgia meet

JBA September 2019

The First of Maud, But Not the Last

Maud is my FIRST guest author

If you have been following Grandma’s blog posts or any of her social media posts you may have possibly ran across the name of Maud. Well, that’s me. I am the fluffer of bunnies, the burping master, and the sweetest granddaughter ever. (Grandma may not agree, but the rest of the world does).

Grandma asked me to be a guest writer on her blog and I was hesitant to say yes, but oh so thrilled at the same time. I am not going to promise grammatically correct sentences, or eloquent language, but I hope that after you read this you will appreciate the many firsts that happen in life. When Grandma asked me to write I nagged her about what I would write about. I am the type of person who needs a template to write anything, (thank you school), so when Grandma said to write about whatever I wanted, my head spinned twenty different ways. But, as I was sitting on the plane towards Atlanta my mind narrowed its thoughts down to what this trip was about for me.

My mind came up with, Firsts. This was my very first trip travelling with just me and Grandma. This was my very first trip going to Glacier National Park. This was my very first time in Polebridge, MT and having their cinnamon rolls. This was my very first time seeing mountain goats. This was my very first time seeing a moose. This was my very first time travelling down Swingley Road. This was my very first time meeting Dick Rath and staying at his cabin. This was my very first time hiking down to the river at Natural Bridge State Park. This was my very first time going through Bynum, MT, my first time in Choteau, MT, and my very first time at Madison Buffalo Jump. This was my first time going to eat supper at the Sweet Grass Ranch and sharing some sweet company with the Carroccias and the Dringmans. I heard stories about people I had never met and people that I loved, and some stories were new to me and even to Grandma.

Let me tell you, these firsts were amazing and absolutely incredible. I am forever thankful to the lady that brought me here and helped me experience all these firsts. I am forever thankful for the lady that spent a lot of these firsts by my side.

Maud with her brother and Daddy Buck

But, this was also my very first time in Montana without Daddy Buck. This was my very first time without Daveen opening her door and saying, “Oh! Hello! Welcome!” This was my very first time going to Aunt Barabara’s house and not seeing Uncle Ralph sitting at the kitchen table ready to answer all of the questions we had for him. This was my very first time going to look at houses and property for my grandma and grandpa to possibly live. This trip full of many, “very firsts” was also very hard. This trip gave me lots of incredible firsts, and also some tough firsts, but this trip also showed me that my family would not have ended up where they are now without both good and bad firsts. Stanton and Guadalupe had to FIRST leave New Mexico to end up in Montana. The uncles had to FIRST build the ranch before they could run it. Poppy had to FIRST go to Canada before he ended up in Big Timber, MT. Aunt Barbara had to FIRST invite Jean to her house for Buck and Jean to meet. Daddy Buck had to FIRST ask Grandma Buck to marry him before they started their adventure. They both had to leave Montana for the FIRST time to end up in Georgia. They had to have five kids FIRST before they had Grandma. Daddy Buck and family would live in Athens, GA FIRST before they moved to LaFayette, GA. Grandma and Puppa had to meet FIRST before they had my dad. Mom had to have her FIRST boyfriend before she knew dad was the one. My parents had Jess FIRST before they had their favorite daughter. I had to go on my FIRST trip to Montana in 2003 to absolutely fall in love with the land and the people. I had to ask Grandma FIRST to go on this trip (and she had to FIRST say yes).

Maud and her brother

The many firsts I have experienced on this trip have led to a stronger passion and love for The Last Best Place. I felt like I have grown closer to my family, to the people who used to live there and live here now, and to my cowgirl Grandma. So, I say all of this to say, the firsts in your life are important. The best firsts, and the worst firsts, and all of the in- between firsts lead you to where you are and where you want to go. Embrace those firsts in the best way that you can, because those firsts lead to stories told in the car on the way to East Glacier. Right, Grandma? 

Side Note: I think I am now Grandma’s favorite. There’s a FIRST for everything, right? Maud

                                       me & Maud