Beyond the Gate

The road to the old home place was not much more than a beaten path riddled with rocks and potholes that led into the mountains, and we managed to find every one of them. We jiggled back and forth when we forded the creek, the sound of stones crunching under the tires. 

History lived there in the trees and behind rock piles along the trail. We heard it whisper old tales as we passed by. Laughter sang through the boughs of firs and pines as images of children played outside the old schoolhouse that once stood in the woods. If one knew where to look, there might even be faint visions of children pulling on the reins of the horses that stomped their hooves and swatted flies with their tails. Kids hid behind sagebrush while one rode an imaginary horse that looked like a dried-up stump. In the distance was the sound of the shrill whine of a sawmill. Smoke rose from the chimney as a greeting to any that made it that far into the heart of the mountains.  

Though no one had lived at the place at the end of the road for some time, memories still lingered. As we pulled into the yard, we were greeted by Quaking Aspens waving their shimmering leaves in the summer light as if anxiously awaiting our arrival.

An old fence that at one time surrounded and protected the log cabin was all but gone except for a few worn pieces of wooden rails scattered on the ground. A weathered gate cheated time and stood defiantly in its place. Its rusty hinges gripped tightly to the posts that held the gate. Patches of faded green paint clung stubbornly to the brittle slats. A round piece of old machinery chained to the gate hung heavily to keep it closed and to signal the comings and goings of family and friends. Though I could have easily walked right past the gate, I opened it anyway and was not disappointed to hear the clang clang as it slammed behind me. 

I stepped onto the walkway that led to the sagging door of the cabin. As I entered the doorway, a light breeze stirred remembrances along with the dust and dirt that danced across the floor with a breath of the wind. Memories came to life. 

Thoughts and images flashed before me and soon the chill in the air dissipated. I looked around and was amazed at what I saw in my mind’s eyes. The wood cookstove was fired up and the cabin filled with warmth. On the kitchen floor was a washtub filled with hot water where a teenaged girl had just soothed her aching muscles after her trek in the mountains. At the sound of the clank and clang of the gate, weary backpackers trudged down the walkway into the house to be relieved of their burdens and greeted with the aroma of meat and potatoes cooking on the old stove. After dropping their packs and other gear, some plunked down on the long wooden bench and rubbed their aching feet. Some backed up to the crackling fire under the watchful eyes of the old deer mount that surveyed the scene with the shifting eyes of a sentry. At another glance, I saw little girls sipping hot tea out of fancy teacups with their grandmother. The slam of the gate caught my attention again as kids ran in and out of it as they played. 

I think those who went through the gate just liked to hear that resonating tone, for you see, it signified something greater than just a clanging clanking noise. It symbolized hospitality, an ever-encouraging word, family, friends, love, laughter, and tales of life in the mountains. It meant safety, and protection from the rest of the world.

All too soon, it was time to go. The gate clapped one last time as it closed behind us. With one look back at the place in the mountains that had once teemed with life, I knew that on another day, we would make that journey again.

Though the green wooden gate no longer stands in the mountains, it remains a portal to a place of serenity, a place to recharge, and a place to visit in my memories when all else in the world seems wrong. 

A Sacred Land

The side road between the Big Horn and Pryor Mountains abruptly came to an end. I cautiously stood on the precipice and peered into the Bighorn Canyon below thinking it could swallow me at any moment. 

Massive rugged walls of colorful layers of rock rose 1000 feet from the riverbed. Time and unrelenting forces of wind and water carved the canyon leaving stone sentinels to stand guard along the pea soup green algae water of the Bighorn River that winds through the curvy gorge. 

Not far away in this high dry country between the mountains, I walked along a trail where teepees once stood in the shadow of a rocky cliff. I looked across the valley and could almost envision the camp of teepees, fires burning, little ones playing and helping the women and men as the buffalo harvest was under way. Though the teepees no longer point toward the big sky, the stone rings that once secured them still remain, and so does their story. Wild mustangs, descendants of Spanish horses brought to the area by the Crow Indians, still make their home in the Pryor Range and stand watch over their homeland.

It is said that several hundred years ago, the Crow Chief was instructed in a vision to take his people and “find the mountain range where the sacred tobacco plant grows.” They eventually came to the Bighorn Mountains where the treasured plant continues to live. This area which includes parts of Montana, Wyoming, and South Dakota, became the historical homelands of the Crow Nation. Through this journey, they became known as the Apsáalooke. 

Through an exhibit, “Apsáalooke Women and Warriors,” currently on display at the Museum of the Rockies, we were able to walk through part of their journey. It was a fascinating trail exploring their beginnings in this historical homeland and traveling with them past works of art, and into modern times ending with contemporary clothing intricately designed. My mother would have been in awe of their artistic creations and seamstress expertise. 

The exhibit began with the story of how the Crow tribe came to the area. As I read their brief account, I was amazed to find that the place upon which I had stood among the teepee rings just days before in view of the Bighorn Mountains was in the land the Apsáalooke called home. My thought was, “It is indeed a small world.”

Several miles away from the site of the teepee rings, a baby boy was born into the Crow tribe at the-cliffs-that-have-no-name in 1848. His name was Chiilaphuchissaaleesh, or “Buffalo Bull Facing The Wind.” When he was just a boy he made his way with others to the Crazy Mountains, known to the Crow tribe as Awaxawapiia. The mountains were a sacred place to them. For four days, the young boy fasted and prayed for a vision that would strengthen and guide not only himself, but also the Crow people. He was granted his desire. Later, as the boy grew to a man, he was called Plenty Coups and he became Chief of the Crow tribe.

The Crazy Mountains are still considered a sacred place for the Crow nation as well as those who have lived in the heart and shadows of the mountains. It has been a place of refuge for some, a place to relax and reflect and enjoy beauty beyond description. Many still go there for guidance and to seek a vision.  One writer put it this way: 

“The Crazy Mountains overlook so much more than a landscape. They are keepers of the stories of the past, and they could provide keys for the future. Those who live in the shadow of the Crazies know of their beauty, and others, those who’ve experienced or heard stories of their power, can feel their presence from afar.”

And so it is in a sacred land…

Hindu Divide

backing packing over the Crazy Mountains, 1974, as told by my dad

The year before our youngest child graduated from high school, we were having a good summer.  Six refugees from Dixie moved along the ridge as we trudged eastward on our trek from Shields River to the Sweet Grass.  We were at 10,000 feet altitude and above timberline.  We were also above the cloud line.  The sky overhead was blue, but behind us, and below us, a storm was building.    

Black clouds caught on the tops of the forested mounds by the Porcupine Range Station. They climbed through the valley behind us rapidly growing in size. Then in a sudden fury, the storm boiled out of the lowlands and crossed the glaciers.  Lightning jabbed into the barren ridges.  The clouds which engulfed us became fire breathing dragons and chariots for the armies of Mars!  Explosions surrounded us and thunder echoed through narrow gorges.             

We huddled beside an outcropping cliff huddled together taking courage from one another as cold rain slapped our faces.  When the rain ceased, we shivered our way along the crest of the divide.  It was dark and misty.  Then, for an instant, the fog lifted.  From the cliffs below us, valleys branched off like fingers from a hand – Grace Crowell’s blue distances calling like a song.

Ten miles away, to the north, a tiny thread of a highway showed us the route to White Sulphur Springs.  Behind us, dark clouds still hovered over a quilt top of meadows and farmlands.  Southward, a narrow canyon wound into a valley.  Then we reached the end of the ridge and looked down into the headwaters of the Sweet Grass drainage.  A mountain lake came into view.  Campfire Lake, the forest map told us.  But I knew it more by another name.

“Hindu Lake,” Barney Brannin said.  “When you get there, just look at the jagged ridge around the lake and you’ll see why.  There’s a rock on the ridge that looks like an India Indian with a turban on his head.”

“One time,” he said, “two men from India came up the Yellowstone with a party of Englishmen.  These two got put off the boat, or else they left it somewhere between Greycliff and Livingston.  They saw the mountains on the north side of the river and headed for the peaks looking for gold.  Some say they found it.  One of the Hindus returned for supplies but met with foul play before he could get back to the mountains.  His companion, the prospector in the Crazy Mountains, is still on the ridges, waiting for his companion to come back.” 

We looked above the lake toward the southwest.  I caught a glimpse of the Hindu before the mist wiped him out.  Then the rain hit us again.  We were cold, wet and weary when we arrived at the edge of the water.  But there had been a moment that we would remember – a high moment measured by the heart and not by a clock.  We had found a place for seeing – a place for finding oneself. William Stidger put it this way:

“Each soul must seek some Sinai
some far flung mountain peak
where he may hear the thunders roll
and timeless voices speak.”  

Barney Brannin was right.  In this same range Plenty Coups sought wisdom to lead his people. Plenty Coups, Chief of the Crows, could have said it with us.  “Mountains are for visions.”  

The Last Drive

We pulled into the driveway and parked the dusty four-wheelers. I pried my fingers loose from the handlebars and sat for a few minutes before throwing one leg over the seat and slowly sliding off. It had been a 10 ½ hour day trailing cattle to summer pastures. Two more days of trailing and that part of the herd was settled for a while. When we reached the end of the last drive, though I had offered little, I wore a look of satisfaction while completely and contentedly exhausted. I think I even walked a bit bowlegged just like the time I helped drive cattle over the mountains on horseback with my cousin, her crew, and my sister. 

Somewhere along the ride back home the last day on the trail, a thought came to mind, and with the thought was a sense of renewed wonder and respect for my ancestors. Many years ago, they went on a long goat drive. The end of May 1895, the Brannin family left Sapillo Creek, New Mexico and began the long trek by wagons and horseback to Marysville, Montana. Just going that distance of about 1400 miles (by today’s road) was quite a task for the Brannin family and others who traveled with them, but they also trailed a herd of 900 angora goats, 360 horses, and 90 burros. They treasured joys of the journey as they tucked away memories of their time together and made lifelong friends. They also faced many challenges and disappointments along the way, but what others considered obstacles merely spurred them on. 

Brannin descendants in 2012 at Lee’s Ferry where the Brannin family crossed in summer of 1895 on their trek from New Mexico to Montana.

Can you imagine seeing that exodus come your way and passing by? Four covered wagons drawn by horse teams and a mule drawn spring wagon driven by one of the girls followed behind the Brannin “boys” driving the goats, horses, and burros that scattered across the landscape. Any of those alone would have been fascinating to see, but all together must have made quite a picture. I can almost hear the sounds of hooves and the bleats, neighs, and brays of the animals. I can almost see dust rolling behind the company as they pass through deserts and prairies and hear echoes from canyon walls as they descend into valleys and climb steep mountain passes.

Over one year after their departure, the Brannin clan arrived at their Montana destination, but even that wasn’t the end. Years later, wide-eyed children sat in silent awe as family gathered around the table or sat in front of the stone fireplace in the Brannin Ranch lodge and listened to firsthand stories of the historic drive north. The legacy continues to be passed on to later generations as family history is repeated in oral tales and written memories of those long gone.

As I walked away from the four-wheeled steed, a light breeze tugged at my memories, and the stories I’ve heard so many times seemed a bit more real. My step became a bit lighter. I shook the dust from my hat. It had been a good day!

Carved in Time

As I walked up the path, the roar of the river echoed through the canyon. Even from that distance, I could feel the cold spray of water from the falls that plummeted to the riverbed below. It was overwhelming to see the massive power of the torrent from the flood waters that pushed its way through the cliffs, spilled over its banks and spread out in the valley below swallowing up ranches and homes. Just watching the scene demanded respect of the brutal force of nature. It was easy to see how canyons were carved and waterways cut new courses. 

According to the news, a “significant amount of rainfall” caused snowpack in the Beartooth and Absaroka mountains to melt rapidly. The head waters of the Yellowstone River released its deluge as it tumbled down the mountain merging with other swollen streams and rivers to create an unstoppable force of power. 

Just days before, outdoor enthusiasts rafted those same rivers, but as the water rose, it ripped bridges from their pilings, pulled homes from their foundations, uprooted trees, sent debris rushing downstream, stripped people of their livelihood, demolished towns, and left a swath of destruction for hundreds of miles. New records of unprecedented flooding were being set as the old were washed away. 

Time seemed to stand still in the presence of the awesome power of the thundering falls that exploded into the river below. Billowing clouds of water shot upward and spewed spray across the canyon. The devouring river rushed onward through the valley. As I turned to walk away, a soft mist fell lightly on my face. I was still in amazement to have witnessed history being carved in time.

Branding Day

I opened the gate and made my way past the bawling cows and calves that wandered restlessly around the barnyard kicking up dust. They complained about being driven from their pasture. After they settled down a bit the calves were separated from the cows. A couple of guys persuaded, guided, and pushed each calf through an opening between the gates that led to the hydraulic calf table. In less than a minute the calf was lifted on the table, branded, tagged, banded if required, and vaccinated. The cows bellowed and hollered as they waited for their calves to be returned. Within a short period of time, they were reunited and soon in the pasture grazing once again.

That is much different than it was in days of long ago when my dad watched his uncles on branding day. That was a time when family and friends gathered for the branding and the festivities that followed. 

Ropers, wranglers, and those wielding branding irons made their way to the corral along with the spectators who hung on the fence or peered through the log rails. Then, the excitement really began. One of the ropers threw their lasso around a calf’s neck and another cowboy wrestled it to the ground and tied its legs together. A couple of guys held the calf down while the hot iron was applied and burned its identifying mark on the rump. Smoke from the iron mingled with dust that hung heavy over the corral as the smell of burning hair and flesh was blown away in the breeze. When all was done, everyone headed to the lodge. Recounted tales of the day mingled with good natured laughter and the aroma of food coming from the kitchen. It has been a good day.

Times and methods change but branding day is still a vital part of the cowboy culture. What once required many people now takes only a few.  Branding irons heated by fire are now replaced with electric irons, but brands are applied the same way to burn marks of ownership that cannot be removed.  

On branding day, I didn’t peer through the fence rails and see ropers and wranglers in action, but I still got to be a spectator. Somehow, amid the noise and the smoke, I imagined how it might have been in the days of my father’s youth. I think I caught a glimpse of him standing in the middle of the corral, Uncle Dick on the horse, Uncle Sid and Uncle Barney holding down a calf, and a youngster bending over to watch Uncle Ed wield the hot iron to apply the brand. Yes, it was a good day!

Belt

“Belt!” I pointed to the sign then pointed to the left. My husband made no indication that he was going to turn. “Belt”, I said again. He said, “Yes, the Little Belts.” Emphatically I pointed again to the sign and said, “Belt, turn here.” We made a quick left-hand turn and almost immediately the road seemed to disappear beneath Belt Butte.

We descended to the valley on a curvy road. The little town of Belt, Montana was just before us. We slowed as we entered the little town, passing the historic jail that now serves as a museum, and the Belt Valley Grocery with the parking area lined with potted plants for flower beds and gardens.  “There it is! There’s the Harvest Moon Saloon where we are going to have lunch.” We parked in front of the saloon and hopped out of the car. Though the town is not big in size, it is abundant in character. I was fascinated with the old buildings that revealed the architecture of the Finnish and Slavic emigrants who first settled there when the town sprang up. There is a certain air about those small western towns that seems to defy time.

When we entered the saloon, it was just as I imagined. Locals, I guess, sat at the bar spinning their yarns and talking loudly. Upon seeing us, a spry little lady who ran the joint admonished one of the men, “Watch your language! Do you think you’re in a bar or something?” We sat at a table and the lady greeted us with menus and a hello. The whole time we were there, she ran back and forth from the dining area to the grill area to the bar. I took in the whole scene before me – the people, the old relics, the newer technology available, the dim rooms, the neon signs, the old, clouded windows. 

At one time, Belt was a coal mining town, the first in the state of Montana. They supplied fuel to Fort Benton, the smelter at Great Falls, powered locomotives of the Great Northern Railway, and heated homes throughout Central Montana. Just as quickly as the town grew, it came to an abrupt halt when other fuel sources became readily available. Yet, the small town never gave up. The people of Belt, as well as the town itself, have survived the years. From a population of 4000 in the 1890’s during its heyday to a population of 564 in 2020, the town has endured. They found other ways to secure their place in living history. Being in grain country and fed by some of the country’s finest water from the Madison Aquifer, it has become a prime brewing place for makers of craft beers. Belt jail was listed on the National Register of Historic Places in 1980, and the main section of town was listed in 2004. That continues to draw visitors into the quaint town – including us. 

Belt Butte with its dark “belt” of sandstone around its middle, draws travelers’ attention as they pass that way. Not only is the town of Belt named for the butte, but also Belt Creek, and the Little Belt and Big Belt Mountains. Had we not taken the time to turn off the main road, we would certainly have missed another of Montana’s hidden treasure, the little town of Belt, Montana.

Time in a Bottle

The little man held the open canteen under the lips of the pipe that rested on the side of the horse trough. Well, actually, the trough was the belly of an old bathtub into which pure, fresh spring water flowed continually.

To him, it wasn’t just a drink of sparkling, clear, cold water from the spring of his youth, it was a lifeline to his past, to his childhood. Just a sip of water not only cooled his parched throat, but it warmed his soul all the way to his toes. He drowned himself in memories – those of his folks, of fun and mischievous times with his sisters, recollections of his grandmother, uncles, aunts, cousins, and neighbors. Thoughts of his brother crashed around him like the unstoppable rush of the tide’s waves releasing its salty spray. As I looked, I even thought I saw a few salty drops leak from his eyes as he was transported back to that day, when at almost six years old, he stood at his brother’s grave. As if to capture time, the little man tightened the lid when the container was full of a wellspring of memories of the many treasures and tragedies of life.

For many years, the number I do not know, he continued the ritual. Once he returned from each trip, the canteen took its place in the door of the refrigerator. Occasionally, he loosened the lid and took a sip, releasing time from the bottle of pure goodness along with a barrage of memories that echoed within his very being. With every trip back to his home place in the mountains, the canteen went along to be replenished and to fill the man of the mountains with all the memories that ran fresh and clear once again.

When the little man left us, memories in tow, he didn’t take the canteen. No, it sat alone in the door of the refrigerator as if lost in time. It is now in the possession of another who treasures the canteen for what it contains and for the memories of the one who religiously bottled it with love.

The green canteen, wrapped in its olive green canvas cover, still holds water from the little man’s last trip to the mountains and place of his birth. My daughter and I dared take a sip of remembrance after the canteen came into my possession. And, do you know what, the magic was still there. As I unscrewed the lid, an explosion of thoughts and reminiscences spewed out. 

Soon, the canteen will be replenished and the memories of life – and death – will continue. After all, the little man no longer needs the canteen that holds time to stir his memories for the water of life flows freely. 

Make a Wish

The innocent blonde haired blue eyed little boy held the dandelion puff in is hand. He closed his eyes, stood quiet for a moment, then blew as he whispered, “I wish I could be Spiderman.” Little parachutes of dandelion seeds launched and floated through the air. When the little boy opened his eyes, he saw there were some stubborn dandelion tufts still attached to the stalk. He giggled, crunched them with his fingers, closed his eyes, blew, and made the same wish. He wasn’t taking any chances on not getting his wish! Though he didn’t transform into the superhero, I have no doubt that in his dreams and imagination, he accomplished many great feats of heroism.

As children, we saw the world as a magical place where dreams and wishes could come true. Hopefully we will never outgrow the belief that anything is possible. We need that hope in our world today.

Did you make a wish every time you blew out your birthday candles? Did you make a wish as you threw a coin into a fountain or a wishing well? Did you make a wish when an eyelash rested on your cheek? Did you wish upon a falling star as it streaked across the night sky or when you saw the first star of night?

            Star light, star bright
            First star I see tonight,
            I wish I may, I wish I might
            Have this wish I wish tonight.

When we had chicken for supper, I would “call the wishbone.” It was the choicest piece of the chicken, but it was even more special because whoever got the wishbone got to make the wish. Of course, the sibling who got the other side of the bone to pull usually managed to get to make the wish instead of me.

I don’t know as if any of my childhood wishes ever came true, but that never stopped me from wishing then or now. Who knows, maybe a ladybug will land on me, or I’ll come across a white horse and get to make a wish. Better yet, I might catch even a leprechaun – then I’ll get a wish and a pot of gold.